Heartbreak
It’s almost 5 o’clock in the morning and I still can’t seem to sleep. I can’t put my mind to rest and my brain cells are all active right now. There’s a need for me to write coz I can’t utter a word to anyone. I’m hurt and devastated. I thought our relationship’s gonna be what I expected. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong, you suddenly flipped out. I whined like a kid coz I’m hurt and I learned in the movie Princess Diaries that when you’re hurt, it’s okay to cry. You said I never understood you when all I ever did was understand and impress you by being a good girlfriend. I never asked for anything, not a single thing from you because I know what you’re going through and I know it ain’t no easy. I never put you on a chokehold coz I wanted you to enjoy with your friends coz I know how much they mean to you. With just a single basketball practice, which was okay for me, you threw a fit like a kid. You don’t know how badly hurt I am. Your words inflicted pain in my guts. One sorry and a hug would be enough coz I love you way too much. It’s beyond my control. I don’t have any idea if you’re gonna talk to me but this time, I know it’s not my fault. I wasn’t the one being childish. If you don’t want me in your life anymore, I’ll get by. I just thought I was the ideal girlfriend - the kind of woman that doesn’t lie nor cheat, doesn’t nag nor demand anything, that girl who would have been good enough but I guess I wasn’t…
P.S.
I love you…
Must achieve this hair. Both length and color. I’m currently working on it though it’s taking a loooooong time for my hair to grow longer. Eshhh, patience, patience that’s what they say. Aaaaaaccck!
2012
I’m hoping for the best things to happen this year. I want to get my life back on track and I want to fulfill my goals for me and my family. I’m taking things positively and I’m much willing to take risks now. I’m gonna try my best to step out of my shell and take a mile off from my comfort zone. 2011’s been full of mishaps for me. Everything didn’t go the way I planned it but I’m still grateful to God for making me stronger and helping me overcome my stresses. I’m gonna make this year my year and I hope nobody fucks it up. Endconv.
